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[catslash]

Just need to have a brief whinge:

I hate feeling guilty about spending money. Whywhywhy do I? It's my money and it's my call. And it's not like I spend it all on junk, I buy necessary-to-life items too, like cleaning supplies and milk and deodorant.

So why do I feel guilty about buying CDs or books or DVDs? About spending the money on fun things while I still can, before I have to become a Real Grownup with Real Bills To Pay?

Give me a chance and it's amazing how much self-loathing I can work up over spending twenty-six bucks on things I was going to buy eventually anyway. I'm not as happy as I seem. I'm just good at sucking it up, especially online where no one can see my real face anyway. Even in real life I go for passive aggression rather than expressing real anger or hurt, so I think it surprises people when I do get truly upset.

Oops, just lost my train of thought. Just as well, I'm minutes from the end of my computer session anyway. I'm sure I shall go back to my usual cheer in my next entry. But that will be real too. When I post happy things, it's because I am happy.

Comments

[(Anonymous)]

Feel no guilt. If you are earning your money legitimately and taking care of the expenses you must pay, the rest is yours to use however you wish. I know that you know this since I merely paraphrased what you had already said, but sometimes external validation is a nice thing to have.

Side note: I almost typed valification. I think watching GWB speak on the news tonight may have partially washed the portion of my brain that contains vocabulary.

~Hoedogg

[catslash.livejournal.com]

This is why we don't watch the news. Or at any rate, this is why we only watch The Daily Show and pretend we're informed. ;)

[writinggoddess.livejournal.com]

Hah! I'm a Real Grownup with Real Bills To Pay and a Little Kid to boot, and I still get to buy cool (but inconsequential) stuff. I just make sure to buy it cheap. That is the key, my dear evil twin.