Cathryn

I'm a regular insomnia sufferer, for numerous reasons but mostly the lupus and medications I'm on, and I honestly understand how AWFUL you must be feeling. **HUG** The nausea is the worst for me . . . and this total inability to focus on the things you need to focus on, even people speaking to you. In the end I got some temazapam from my doctor and that does work for a few months as a temporary measure, if you get too bad I'd recommend it just so your body can catch up. They're not addictive so you can stop anytime once you're back to normal.

But no, you're not dying, And it's common for the anxiety over the insomnia to actually perpetuate itself and stop you sleeping, which is why some sort of aid might help. If you can get a decent night's sleep even some of the time, it can lessen the feeling of impending doom as bedtime nears, and help you sleep more naturally again. And I know this is an old chestnut, but if you're lying there and know damn well you won't sleep for a while, it's better to get up and do something (I listen to audiobooks in bed, lol) until you are tired enough to pass out, rather than lying there worrying about it.

I'll get off the soapbox now. :) But from experience I just sympathise hugely with your problem, and I really hope it gets better for you soon. **HUG**